Good morning

I didn't get up at a decent time to go to my doctor appointment today. It's at RIC to get my awful leg braces fixed but because it is currently.. oh 11 degrees outside and my ankles alone feel like they're about to break. I'm not that fat, thank you very much, I'm just simply not up to it.

Good grief, can you say Seasonal Affective Disorder? Yep.

I had a dream yesterday that woke me up - apparently it was some sort of trip filled with a car, my parents [beloved dad was alive], stealing and court. So, I woke up and called mom immediately because she had court to go to yesterday.. She's still not in jail. Yay. She goes back April 2.

The other night I went to Dominicks and spent a surprising $50. NO junk! Just 2 cases of water, 2 boxes of honey nut cheerios [on sale for $2!], 2 bananas, milk, some health bars, grapes, 6 fruit cups, Organics bean & cheese burritos.. I think that's it. I was proud of myself for no junk food. So I had a proper breakfast that I haven't had in AGES.. A bowl of honey nut cheerios, a banana and a nice big cup of Joe.

Today I'm finally getting off my ass and heading to my physical science class and hopefully the teacher will accept all my tardy work.

Homework catch up

I finally caught up with my physical science homework! Aye. I thought I'd never finish.

Couldn't sleep all that well last night. My mind wouldn't shut up and kept paying more attention to playing a free cell game on my iPod than going to sleep. Eventually I fell asleep sometime after 9 or 10am and woke up again around..3pm.

Tonight as I mentioned already, I caught up with my physical science homework and then Lisa and I started doing some major cleaning - actually she started and then I joined in because we were initially looking for an adapter for my Comcast cable box..that I forgot to send back last year. I called via relay and asked if I'll still get my left over credit once I finally do send back my box... sure enough I'll get a lovely $12.51. Not a lot but hey, every little bit helps a poor college kid like myself!

I think my place looks worse when it should be looking better! HA! It will, later. :)

More Reba & Kelly.....

View a bunch more at my flickr account here. In other news, apparently the Chinese food that Lisa and I ordered on Friday night didn't keept well.. Poor girl threw up and I'm just making bathroom trips at the moment.

Oh well. The joys of Chicago.. we got more snow. Dangit.

Kelly & Reba in Rockford!

Kelly Clarkson & Reba McEntire! I took this photo, along with a thousand others on Saturday February 9, 2008.

The plan was to head out with Yesina, Andy and Lisa. Yesina would drive, and we'd attend the concert.. Andy & Lisa would drive around Rockford for a while and pick us up when it was over. Scratch that plan because Yesina's mom doesn't trust her driving out that far. (It's about an hour and half drive from Chicago).

The concert is Saturday and I'm just now being told this info on Thursday night. I went to Yoga that night and slept over at Lisa's. Friday we spent most of it sleeping. I was very sore as I haven't gone to Yoga in a while. A lot of it was due to the weather and trust me, this weather sends me into a bit of SAD.. I finally got out of bed, and headed out to pay my rent and wait for the bus. When I finally got home, I went on the internet to search for a way out there. I know we can only take the bus but Amtrak.com says I have to get a train ticket in order to get that bus ticket. I went to my trusty VP (video phone - Sorenson Video Phone) to make these calls. It took me two hours to figure out a bus ticket and get a hotel. With the hotel, I tried to get one that would allow shuttle service from the Bus station to the hotel, the hotel to the metro center and later back to the bus station. No shuttle service. I'm told that a cab service won't be too costly.

I paid $100 for a night and I was already feeling the stress from these last minute changes.
Getting bus information wasn't making it any easier! With Amtrak saying I can't order my ticket, I call greyhound and..trust me, everyday I thank God/Goddesses that I can use this VP with interpreters because she told me this person had a terrible accent that was hard to understand.. Plus this person was just being confusing.. I understood that I had to get there an hour before the bus leaves to get my ticket - which by the way meant we had to leave my place at 4am to get there at 5:30am while the bus left at 6:30am..

Lastly, all I wanted to know was where do I go to get these tickets. Of course it was downtown.

Anyway, getting there was a little stressful and very cold.. We missed the bus.. Then it finally came at a quarter to five.. Luckily the train was there was we arrived and basically we were OK. But getting back to the bus station Sunday was terrible.. The first cab I called said that it would be 2 hours before we finally get a cab, no good. Called another cab and they never came. We ALMOST missed our bus! It was about to pull away by the time we finally got there. A woman who worked at the hotel had to drive us because the stupid cab company kept telling me on the phone that they're on the way.

Anyway, now I need to hop in the shower and head to my night class.

Ugh, I suck.

Again, I'm multitasking... Let me just point out that my studying skills? They suck!
Stress like this really does put my ADD in haywire position.

I slept all day avoiding the studying as well as missing school. I do that sometimes.. when I don't feel like I finished enough or whatever..

Aye Aye Aye!

Gone Ruby Red, Hope for Help & Silly Lisa

*sings to the tune of a Tori Amos song..also a line in the song called Take To The Sky*
"I dyed my hair red today..."



Lisa, put my favorite bear, whose name is Hope. Her tag says "Desire" but I preferred Hope. in my basket while I went to get some laundry downstairs.. I took this photo when I came back.. It reminded me of my lovely times in the hospital when I was in the rehabilitation place and this one woman, not me, would always a doll with her and wouldn't do anything til the doll was OK. Anyway..


And Lisa being silly with the socks from the Payless Shoe Source.



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Woohoo, the Giants won... now off to continue enjoying House.

Tinnitus & Stuff

Last night I had a terrible night with tinnitus, which is ringing in the ears. I'm used to a kind of shushing noise most of the time and other times actual silence but occasionally I'll get one long night with some loud ringing sound that makes it really hard to sleep. Luckily with the impending snow storm going on and already being off from school for a Friday, it didn't mess me up too badly. I eventually fell asleep around 8 or 9am and slept til 2pm and then threw in another three hours. Ha. BUT the point is, I finally got out of this crazy-ass slump I've been in all week! I've been really crabby and blah and on top of school that leads me to being hard on myself, nothing goes right. It's been too cold to work out.. so, yeah.

When I got up, I was finally feeling really good, made a PB&J, picked up my apartment, gathered some laundry.. did my laundry.. While waiting for one load to wash and another machine to free up, I did my dishes.. Put some coffee away. I kept a coffee can from a previous coffee purchase and now when I buy a bag of coffee, I actually dump that in the can and it keeps it fresh. By the time I finished my laundry, even though some of it was a little damp, I didn't care, I figured I'd save my quarters for tomorrow when I do my sheets & blankets that desperately need a cleaning.

My bestest friend Carol in California is going through a ton of tough life stuff and we always chat every two weeks or so on the phone. While I waited for her phone call, I got my math homework done.

Certainly a very satisfying afternoon and evening.

It's always frustrating when I'm hard on myself.. especially with school.. I always think I'm not doing well enough or a paper I wrote isn't good enough. Which then makes the whole getting-out-of-bed very difficult. It's a very obnoxious cycle. VERY obnoxious. My anxiety goes way up and it's this terrible domino effect.

The cool thing with Carol is she went through a program called CHAANGE a few years ago. Yes, two A's. I forget exactly what it all means but the point is it's getting rid of panic attacks and anxiety. I've been real anxious starting school again and used to have pretty chronic anxiety and many panic attacks. I'll admit my panic attack triggers aren't nearly as high but my general anxiety attacks are pretty up there. So she just resent this 30 pound package on Wednesday so I might get it early next week.. It's generally a 15 week program but I don't have to do it at that pace, I can go slower or whatever. The best thing is I'll be able to do this with my therapist and she's really eager to see this as well because, well, she knows I have anxiety as well.

I just want to be in control of everything! HA. Right.

Now, I'm currently blank.. Have a good night!