It's Sunday.. and I'm back.

After four days of being in Jacksonville, IL for the 2nd Annual Deaf-Blind retreat, I've spent my Sunday at home... mostly hanging in bed. For four days I had a schedule to follow, things to do, work as an SSP (Support Service Provider), apply techniques and just do the best I can. From 7:30am to 10:30pm everyday I was crazy busy and even though there was a computer in the room, I never touched it. Can you believe it? I never touched it! I used my blackberry of course to talk to my mom and browse twitter but otherwise.. I barely had the energy to do anything more. I remember calling my mom once and leaving her a message and I noticed I sounded exhausted! I made a mental note to never leave a message again or I'd probably worry her.

However, for today, I didn't spend it all in bed. I did go to Walgreens to get my Lyrica because I am officially out and I only had one day left of my Concerta.

It's so weird being home and not really having any plans. Lisa was going to come over but she wanted to give me a day off to myself. How nice of her. I'm grateful for that because I'm just so tired
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I didn't take any pictures while I was at this retreat, unfortunately. I brought my camera to take photos because it was on the list to bring with us but we constantly had things to do, workshops, lunch, interpreting announcements.. It was almost impossible to find a second to take photos! There were a few people around to take photos of activities, workshops, meetings, all sorts of things but otherwise there wasn't any time to do it myself.

When I arrived on Wednesday morning, at some point I heard a message that we were not going to get a certificate to document this experience. I was extremely disappointed. Does that sound selfish? I really wanted something to document this experience so when I try to get a job or try to continue this journey of what I want to be when I grow up, a certificate or official document of some kind would have been helpful. Then one night there was a meeting and someone asked if ALL people - certified interpreters and new SSPs were getting something.. Thankfully the answer was "yes." I couldn't help but clap in relief!

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Now that I'm back, I was sitting in my bed and realized I felt so blah. This is something I need to work on.. hence the reason why I'm writing. I'm trying to get my feelings out either here or on my blackberry in the Notes program because I need to keep track of this.

Before I left I was feeling really depressed. I was having a very hard time snapping out of it. I know snapping out of it is not the best way to go about getting out of it but I didn't want to show up to the retreat looking as awful as I felt. Thankfully being as crazy busy as I was, it helped to get the sadness to go off to the side. I didn't become so self-involved as I felt.
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I'm excited for tomorrow. I get to see Amber Benson for her book signing! I haven't bought her 2nd book yet but tomorrow's signing is for her recent publishing of Death's Daughter.

I will definitely bring my camera for this event!

That's all for now.. please comment???

Lost the Train of Thought

I've been wanting to blog.. a lot.. I just seem to lose the motivation to keep up with it and when I attempt to.. No one seems comment.. Comments always help me feel better

Instead of focusing on what I used to love to do.. I'm moving on from that because all of that "used to do" stuff is needing to be put in a garbage disposal.

I've been majorly addicted to Twitter.. especially while using Ubertwitter on my blackberry.

This friday June 12, I go see PJ Harvey for my first time! I never got a chance to see her in concert. I'm looking forward to taking pictures when we get there. I'm hoping it doesn't get too crazy and I end up reliving my traumatic experience of seeing Tori Amos at the Vic. Lisa's going with me.. and even though she's deaf she does seem to enjoy lighting and watching the singers expressions on their face.. Just go with the flow of it all.

Besides my future plans.. I've been sick with a terrible sinus infection since Sunday and that has really left me feeling down and sleeping a lot. Thankfully I don't have any major assignments or appointments to attend to. But all this coughing up junk is no fun. Really no fun.

Also next week June 17-20. I'm going on my first deaf-blind retreat.. I'm going to be training as an SSP.. I need to find out what that means but I'm looking forward to it.. It's going to be a new experience for myself.

I'll definitely take my camera with me and take lots of photos. And if I have any internet access for my laptop and a chance to write, I'll do my best to keep everyone updated.

Sleeping pill is kicking ... I'm getting a little sleepy to say the least.