The Home Stretch

I am finally two semesters away from graduating from College! I'm working for an Associates just so I can finally feel like I've made it through school.. and I think I'll transfer to a University to get a Bachelors in Social Work.

I registered for two classes this fall - Biology 119 and Math 118. I'll be going Monday's and Wednesdays with three days off to kick my butt into a good little student and actually do well on exams.

During the spring semester I'll take two more classes - Psychology 221 and Astronomy 101 or something.... and finally, finally, finally get a degree in my hands!

I am seeing a Neurologist tomorrow.. or today being it's almost 2am when I'm writing this... hopefully this guy will help with a bunch of nerve-y pains and sensations that I've gotten on and off for the last 6 years and I've about reached my breaking point of dealing with it.. Help please would be nice... wish me luck.

Doctor, doctor

I went to the eye doctor on Wednesday. I have a scar on my right eye..somewhere. It's funny because I'm always saying "my right eye is stronger" when during this test I realized.. it isn't. My left eye was obviously stronger. But then when I learned
about the scar, it all made a bit of sense. We just don't know if it's from the bacterial meningitis or the fact that I was born nearly three months premature. It's nothing that I want to get too concerned about - even though I have to go back on the 25th.

I already have such a busy doctor summer.. Kind of depressing but remember, I AM OK so it's not like I'm trying to find out why my stomach hurts or something. I am seeing a neurologist on Thursday.. I've had problems in terms of nerves or weird sensations for the last 6 and a half years and it's really getting annoying this year. Mom wants to come, she wants to see what they say.. I'm going to have her sleep over since I can never trust her to meet me anywhere at a specific time.

Everytime I call her, I have to let it ring more than 6 times. She's figured out that collectors call and by 6 rings, they hang up. If it's more than 6, she knows it's not them. Anyway, I've been trying to call her on and off everyday because we've been wanting to meet but.. she doesn't answer.. and I can't always get up the courage to face the house. It's such an embarrassing mess.. I can't stand it.

Obviously today was fathers day.. I miss my dad. He was a cool guy to say the least. Despite the hardships we had, I do have some great memories of him and I can't list them all or I'll just cry.

Tomorrow I have to go to school, finish the financial aid thing they need and try to register for some fall classes. I have a few in mind and hope I can get them all in as well as keep my Fridays off again.

Yet I just cry about it..

I had the hardest time getting to UIC today.. it was another dr appointment with a different plastic surgeon.

Being hard of hearing is really difficult.. I had a hard time hearing him - what is with these surgeons? Do they get together and work on speaking so terribly? I requested an interpreter when I made this appointment two weeks ago.. And then I sat in the waiting area for over an hour before finally being called in.

I don't know why but the word "defeated" keeps coming to mind and that's not what it is - is it?

The appointment was okay.. as long as I wasn't photographed like I was last time I guess that's a plus. But he basically said that I have to pick one thing that I want to be changed.. the first thing being the "shark bite" in my shoulder.. I don't have any pictures unfortunately.. but if I decide on that then he can go in depth about how he would do this.. What the recovery time would be like.. etc

There were mentions about physical therapy to try to get some muscles in my legs working.. [I think?]

The thing I had a difficult time understanding was not getting at least a general picture of what he could do for me and then zoom in on specific areas.. I just didn't get anything that said "yes I can help you".. it just felt more like "I can't help you."

As soon as the door closed I just started to cry. The nurse was nice to explain what I wasn't getting which was this appointment was like a consult and he could go into more specifics when I pick one thing.

Getting the bus was terrible from downtown. Why the hell the site didn't say to go to Michigan Ave is beyond me - instead it told me to get the #4 at Washington & State. Anyway, getting back home was of course easier than getting there.

After rushing to the Belmont bus, Lisa told me about going to her cousins for some drinking and playing chess. I just didn't want to go.. I was in no mood to be social.. So she came by to get some money and decided to not go to the little gathering anyway and actually let me cry this time.. I told her it did help this time to not be told to 'stop crying' and actually have her hold me and let me vent.

When I finally felt better, we went to Dunkin Doughnuts for a bagel and some pop. I'm running out of money really quickly and that's just depressing.. but I didn't have a lot here anyway.

Life is better in pictures..

I went to a carnival today but didn't really start taking photos until we left.. and then some when I got home..



My hallway outside my apartment.. our place is being worked on.




Me wearing a flower my girlfriend picked for me.,


A gas station by the bus stop..

Chocolate.. please?

Man, I'm sitting here after having a very pleasant night with my mommy.. We went to a nice little Thai restaurant near my apartment and now I want Chocolate.. I know this means I'm having my period soon.. kinda sucks since I need to go to bed early.. I might just cave and head to the store tonight.. Cus I need coffee too.

All's good.. little stressful with a friends medical emergency but she's doing well. :)

Going away now.

Work til the Sun comes up

Cloudy or not.. I'm still up.. I was mostly distracted on the web but then I finally got to work on my final Presentation for my Humanities class.

But here's some great news...

I PASSED PRE-CREDIT TWO MATH!! Next fall I get to take math 118! FINALLY. I am BEYOND thrilled for once to be doing well with math! I had a great teacher who started off with basics and worked our way up.. The interesting thing was a lot of the semester was very similar to Math 99 and a lot of what the teacher did, helped clear up SO MANY PROBLEMS I WAS HAVING! MAN! I am just thrilled to finally make a leap..

Now I am exhausted. Off for a few hours of sleep.

Finals... not fun

I have two final exams tomorrow. One is for my Physical Science class and the other is part two of my Math exam.

I'm hoping to do well on my math exam but I'm going to leave some studying as last minute since as a big theme in Hope tonight, I really hope to get a good nights sleep.

I have to get up early since I am going to WalMart tomorrow. I bought a bunch of bras and blindly picked the wrong size.

I wish I posted more often.. maybe when finals are done and I figure out what I'll be doing for the summer, I'll start posting a bit more often. :D